I'm in Crisis.

I'm in crisis. I have been for about a month now. I haven't reached out to many people because everyone is so busy with the current crisis, & the ones I have tried to connect with have been too busy. I really appreciate all the positive posts I see on here, the helpful activities, the interesting subjects. The negative ones are overwhelming and take away energy and desire to attempt any of those activities. I've been so overwhelmed with so many different things that my normal coping skills are ineffective and I have difficulties finding the will to live, the hope for a bright future, an escape from the overwhelmingly negative emotions. (I am NOT suicidal. I am NOT saying this to be drama-full.) Now that we're on lockdown my introverted awkward butt can't even try & make new friends, and I'm too emotionally overwhelmed to brain or find joy in the things that were once saving graces. Even with the few truly supportive and close people I have, the current maelstrom is too much. I'm not saying this to have a pity party or get attention. Im a therapist, and usually my self-care is on point, and now I can't seem to rally. I'm saying this because if I'm feeling that way with all my practiced skills, then others have got to be too, and we've got to find ways to ride this out. We've got to share the love, pull together in whatever ways we can, check on each other and maybe even give a shit about your fellow community member. Stop picking sides & complaining & spreading vitriol and instead be a decent and loving person that we're capable of being. I can't say that we'll make it through this storm, but I can say that we can try to make the best of it (& not add to the worst) while we're here. Clutch whatever life raft of hope you can find and that might take searching, searching, searching... I wish you luck, tenacity, positivity, and survival. ♡